My WILD relationship stories...
My WILD relationship stories:
I went on a date with 5 women, at the same time. Then came home to a different woman I was seeing at the time, who actually helped me set up that mega-date LOL. What a life, right? Australia is a wild place. smh…
I was someone’s affair and didn’t know it. That felt shitty.
Flying to a different city to surprise the woman I loved during a turbulent time and help her when she didn’t have much help. That was something straight out of a movie and I’ll never forget the look of my uber drivers face when he was so happy to be a small part of it. Or her face as she stood there in complete shock.
Having an entire relationship with someone almost 20 years older than me. That was… interesting.
Having a 6-month relationship with someone during lockdown that I had never met in person, and we moved heaven and hell to meet up, and it was NOTHING like what it was online. LOL we tried but damn.
And in all this, I was chasing the feeling of love. I only really ever felt it with a partner by my side. And in the past, I would have said all of these women were emotionally unavailable… while that might be partially true, I know I most certainly wasn’t emotionally available. What was driving my love life was desperation. Longing. Yearning. And it wasn’t until years later that I realized:
If a connection starts in desperation, it will end from desperation, until your desperation ends.
I see all of this now as simply Idolizing love. I loved love more than I loved God… And in that chase, I got my reward of a love that was always out of reach. It wasn’t until recently that I was able to be full of love, not chasing, but just grounded and rooted in love. All of this used to be a fun flex for me. Now I’m quite embarrassed.. but I share this to share the imperfections of my journey.
Thank God perfection isn’t a prerequisite.
Anyway fast forward to 2019 - Even though my own love life was wild and completely messed up, everyone around me was coming to me for relationship advice. It seemed comical and odd but I got really good at supporting others. I decided to leave the fitness industry and go all in on relationship coaching, and I started supporting thousands of women in healing from heartbreak and healing codependency as The Heart Guy.
Going from homeless to making a quarter of a million dollars in a year, I spent the money faster than I made it. After a workshop tour, I came home to an eviction notice, a falling out with a friend I owed money too, my biz coach threatening to sue me because I was late on a payment, and the realization that I had racked up over 100k in debt seemingly overnight.
My integrity was at stake, I said I would pay these people. So I will.
And I did.
In a little over a month. But I lost ten pounds, lived on energy drinks, and developed severe adrenal fatigue.
Shortly after, I had an accidental overdose on plant medicine that changed the trajectory of my life (and my work) in ways i could have never expected.
Tune in next week for part 4…